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It's been almost a year!!!   
02:07am 18/07/2006
  Wow.. last time i wrote in this thing was July 27th of last year, almost a whole year. Last time i wrote me and Justin had just gotten back together. Well guess what.. that didn't last but a few weeks, i should have expected that i guess. I'm still heartbroken over him, I actually haven't gone out with anyone since then. I saw him a few months ago after he got back from Iraq because i still hang out with his friends but i was too scared to talk to him really.. it always ends up bad. But enough about him. I went back to school last fall, i went to miami hamilton and hated it. So now i'm joining the Air Force and i'm so excited i can't wait. I don't know for sure when i'm leaving yet or anything.. i just know i'm going to do it because i hate college. I really have no other choice but the military i mean i don't want to be a waitress the rest of my life!! I considered the coast guard but i hate boats and i considered the army but the air force just seems so much more exciting to me. All though ihave never been on a plane.. haha oh well i'm sure i won't regret it. I want to make a career out of it too, i don't want to just go for a few years. But we'll see i could change my mind after 4 or 5 years. No one believes me that i'm going to do it.. but i will show them. People also think if i do go i won't make it but i have no doubt in my mind that i can do it.

Hmm.. what else has happened in the last year, well i did move to West Chester like a month ago i love it out here but i still work in Hamilton and it's further from my friends. Well it's further from Allison haha she's like the only person i hang out with. But that's okay because we have so much fun together.

I really don't do much of anything anymore. For the last year all i've done is party and that got really old really fast. I've been sober for six weeks today actually, and it's so nice not being hung over all the time. I'm back to my old goofy self! I mostly just work, watch tv, and hang out with allison... it's a boring life! That's why i think it's a great idea to go into the Air Force! I'm really not leaving anything behind besides my family, Allisons going away to college and i don't really have any other really close friends no one i will miss too too much anyway. There's just nothing here for me anymore.

But i'm going to go now!! Feel free to comment! I would love to hear from people.. i never hear from anyone anymore!!! I miss everyone so much :(
 
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Fair week!!   
01:36pm 27/07/2005
 
mood: lazy
So a couple weeks ago me and Will broke up. I've been wanting to break up with him for a while... things just weren't the same anymore. I guess things just change. And now i'm with Justin Casey, which to me is still hard to believe lol. When he first left for the army like two years ago we decided we were going to be together but then he came back for christmas and i guess got back with his exgirlfriend or something. But then i ran into him a few weeks ago at the Millville carnival and we was on leave the whole next week and we were together everyday and now we're together. I think it's going to work out this time, things are just different. He really acts like he likes me this time, we just act more like a couple. He invites me everywhere with him when he's in town and he holds my hand and kisses me in front of his friends n stuff :). He is getting ready to leave for Iraq though, and he asked me if I will wait for him. I said yeah but it's just hard for me to do that because i've waited for him before while he was away and look what happened. He says he knows he made a mistake and it won't happen again. He says he really likes me and really wants to be with me, so i guess i'll wait one more time. Right now he's at Fort Campbell KY and he's been working from 6 in the morning till midnight, poor guy but he calls me everyday even if it's just for a couple minutes at least i know he hasn't forgotten about me yet.

I'm just so happy me and Will aren't together anymore.. i feel like a free woman haha. Even though i'm with Justin now he's not crazy like Will. When i was with will i wasn't aloud to even hang out with anyone else and if i did he'd cry lol. I wasn't even aloud to drink unless it was under his supervision. So since we've broke up i've been drunk like everynight, i know that's not good but i'll slow down soon, just making up for lost time. And now i even get to spend MORE time with Allison... lol.

But i'm going to go just wanted to catch everyone up a little bit!
 
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I feel much better   
08:50pm 30/03/2005
  So i didn't even wait till today to tell Bruce (the cowboy from my previous entry) that i had a boyfriend i felt so bad i called him last night after i wrote my entry and apoligized for not telling him and he actually wasn't mad which is cool. So things worked out well.. just wanted to let him know before like he went told all his friends we were talking or something crazy and it got around to Will... i just really don't want to hurt him. I promised him i'd never hurt and i'm going to keep my promise!! We're gonna get married someday :) hehe.  
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I'm a bad girlfriend   
11:54pm 29/03/2005
  I think i'm a bad girlfriend! :( i've been so good for so long too. I didn't cheat on Will, but there's this guy that cameinto my work (a cowboy of course lol) and he left a note for me on my truck andi called him and it turns out he's a lot guy and he's friends with all the guy i used to hang out with. By the way the reason i called him is to figure out how he knew what i drove it kinda weirded me out. Then tonight i met him on the west side cuz i was bored and he was over there and we just sat and talked for a while.. didn't sit real close together or nothing i just feel reallllllly bad... tomorrow i'm telling him i have a boyfriend and that will be that... i would NEVER hurt Will there's no way i love him too much. I just feel horrible i should have told him to start i had a boyfriend but then hed think i was nuts for even calling him and now he's just going to be pissed.. but its better to hurt him than it is to hurt Will because i love Will not him. So that's that.. just wanted to get it off my chest  
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Truck!   
12:07am 17/03/2005
  I wrote Will a poem and bought him a card yesterday and wrote a real nice little note in it.. it almost made him cry.. hehe.

Now other than Will all i can think about is my truck!!! LoL!! This weekend me and Will are gonna crank the torsion bars and get about a 3 inch suspension lift out of em. THat gives me a total of 6 inches of lift now.. i'm so excited lol. Then i'm buyin me some 33 inch tires! Gonna do some serious mudding then!! Well after i get my 4 wheel drive fixed! I can't wait to get all that done so me and Will can go to Haspen! Oh Geez!! It's exciting!

Okay i'll shut up now.. good night!


OH YEAH MONSTER TRUCK RALLY SATURDAY!!!
 
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It's time... hehe   
01:32am 12/03/2005
  I've decided i'm moving out with Will and getting married... he jsut doesn't know this yet. Well i've talked to him about moving out and we've been talking about engagement, he's just in no hurry! But i am!! haha. If i didn't have to finish college i'd have me some babies lol.. but i'll try and wait for that. Just all the sudden i'm in some huge hurry duno why.. i'm going crazy. I think we will be married soon though like within the year. We were gonna wait till i finished school but now that i'm here and not in KY why wait eh!? Hey and you all can come to my wedding! I'll let ya know when it is lol. Luckily will doesn't read this.. it'd probably scare the poor boy! haha.

Haha this old guy i work with yesterday he said to me "you shouldn't be working in a restaurant, you should be in a magazine.. a beauty magazine" lol what do ya htink about that? I like when people compliment me.. makes me feel good. And some guy told me yesterday i should be a model.. it's flattering but i don't believe it haha. I don't htink i'm ugly but not that pretty, but it makes me feel good that people think that. Will tells me i'm beautiful all the time but i just thought he had to tell me that because he's my boyfriend hehe. So when other people tell me that it makes me think he's not lying haha. I'm nuts i know.

Well it's bed time.. just wanted to talk to ya for a bit :)

Leave me some comments!
 
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This looks like fun...   
11:29pm 03/03/2005
  Directions- you start with 100% and for everything that you have done on the list, subtract 5% and repost this so that your friends can take the test..

1.) smoking
2.) drinking
3.) drugs
4.) gottin fingered or fingering someone
5.) gottin a hand job or given a handjob
6.) french kissing
7.) been felt up
8.) given a blow job or gottin a blowjob
9.) been licked out or licked out someonelse
10.) had sex
11.) had a threesome
12.) given or takin it in the ass
13.) made a sex tape
14.) done any sexual act on school campus
15.)done anything in class
16.) gotten drunk and don't remember who you had sex or fooled around with
17.) pissed on someones lawn while drunk
18.) fucked in your room while your parents are home
19.) gotten caught havin a party
20.) fucked in a public place

45%... hm...
 
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Fun!   
11:17pm 01/03/2005
  WHAT:
1. is your name: Randall :)
2. is your nickname: Randi
3. are you wearing: sweatpants and a hamilton high tshirt
4. is your favorite thing to do: Fish or go muddin'.. can't wait till it gets warm!
5. is your room like: Hot pink with lots of john deere and western stuff.. weird combination i know
6. is your favorite drink: iced tea
7. is your car: Ford Ranger! I love my truck! hehe
8. is your job: i'm a cashier/waitress
9. is your education: i just quit school :( but i'm going back this fall!
10. is your favorite holiday: Christmas

HAVE YOU:
1. Fallen for your best friend?: i've fallen for friends but not best friends
3. Been rejected?: once.. in 8th grade, i ran into him recently and he apoligized lol
4. Been in love?: I'm in love now! For the first time, it's wonderful but it's true "love hurts" lol
5. Been used?: i hope not
6. Done something you regret?: i try not to live in the past

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
9. You hugged: Will before he left for work (i hate him working 3rd shift)
10. You talked to?: mama
12. You instant messaged?: who knows i don't im much anymore
13. You yelled at?: probably Will.. i'm a mean girlfriend.. sorry
14. You laughed with?: i duno mom or will
15. Who broke your heart?: Justin Casey :( oh well i'm over it!

DO YOU...
19. Color your hair?: i highlight it so i guess so
20. Have tattoos?: one.. a confederate flag rose on my back
21. Have piercings?: nose and ears, i wanna pierce my belly button i'm just not skinny enough yet haha
24. Own a thong?: oh yeah i love em!
25. Ever get off the damn computer?: yeah i'm actally not on it much anymore
27. Habla espanol?: si

HAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU...
29. Stolen anything?: from walmart once.. sorry!
30. Smoke?: i smoke cigars sometimes lol
32. Obsessive?: oh yes
33. Compulsive?: nope
34. Obsessive compulsive?: dont think so
35. Panic?: all the time
36. Anxiety?: yep! I have anxiety attacks a lot actually.. had to leave work the other day they were so bad
37. Depressed?: nope!
38. Suicidal?: no way!
39. Obsessed with hate?: no i hate no one!
40. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, gore?: haha nope

*QUESTIONS*
41. If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: with Will or in Barbourville i want to visit Jocelyn so bad! i miss my friend!
42. Can you do anything freakish with your body?: i can put both my feet behind my head hehe ;)
43. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others?: i duno.. eyes i guess, i love will's blue eyes
44. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: oh yeah!
45. Would you marry for money?: nope! I actally want to make most the money!
46. Have you had braces?: yep 5 years!
47. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: nope, but i probably should
48. Do you like hairy backs?: uh no
49. Do you like hairy crotches?: i like some hair, don't like it bald lol
50. Could you live without a computer?: maybe
51. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc: aim sometiems
52. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: hm...136
53. If you could live in any past, where would it be: i think the 90's were the best
54. Do you wear white socks?: yes
55. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: i take em off.. dad makes me
56. Your favorite fruit?: strawberry and kiwi
57. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: wheat it's better for ya
58. What is your favorite place to visit?: Okeana! haha no probably Gatlinburg
59. What is the last movie you saw?: Taxi
60. Are you religious?: not really
61. Are you photogenic?: at times
62. Do you dream in colour or black and white?: Color
63. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: yep just got my nails done
64. Is it chipped or fresh?: pretty fresh
65. Do you have any dimples?: don't think so
66. Do you remember being born?: haha nope
67. Why do you take surveys?: boredom
68. Do you drink alcohol?: occasionally, i like gettin a little wild every now and then haha
69. Did you like or do you dislike high school?: disliked it
70. What is the best accent?: there was this guy i went to college with named Rocko he's like Vin diesels twin with a boston accent it was beautiful lol, or australlian accents like Kieth urban mm mm
71. Who do you want to kiss?: Well besides Will probably... Keith Urban or Vin Diesel
72. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: sunsets i guess
73. Do you want to live to be 100?: yeah!
74. Is a flat stomach important to you?: oh yeah.. but i don't have one, i been workin out like crazy too
75. Do you or have you played with a Ouija board?:once
76. Are you loyal?: definately
77. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: like to think i am
78. At home, do you like the lights on or off?: on! i hate the dark!
79. Do you like your nose?: i think it's all right
80. Do you think you can draw well?: nope
81. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?: no idea
82. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: all the ones i don't wear so probably like 15 or 20 i have like 5 pairs i wear and they're layin around my room
83. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?: i either wear my work shoes, tennis shoes, work boots, or cowboy boots it depends
84. Do you write poetry?: it's fun every once in a while
85. Snore?: i don't think i do
86. Do you sleep more on your back or front?: front
87. Cats/Dogs?: Dogs, big dogs
88. Do you lick stamps?: no
89. Do you use an electric can opener?: no i like the handheld ones
90. Have you ridden in a hotair balloon?: nope
91. Do you talk to yourself?: nope
92. Are you judgmental?: sometimes

HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN...
93. Smoked your first cigarette?: probably like 9 lol
94. Got drunk for the first time?: 17 i was at a bonfire in Okeana the day after christmas
95. Smoked pot for the first time?: i never have
96. Kissed someone?: like 11
97. Made out with someone?: 14 or 15
98. Lost your virginity?: 16 i think it's been liek two years so yeah 16
 
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Hello there!   
09:31pm 14/02/2005
  I really need to write in this thing more.. not that anyone still reads it, oh well. Not much has really been going on. Still at Bonanza and i'm still with Will, and we're doing wonderful. Bout time i settle down eh? Casie's back for a while her husband is now in iraq and she's like 4 or 5 months pregnant. I really don't have a whole lot to say.. I miss Jocelyn down in ol' barbourville, i cant wait to go see her!! I don't miss the school just my best buddy jocelyn hehe.

I miss all my old friends sheesh! It sucks..i hang out with Will and his friends (well they're my friends too but ya know). I mean everybody! From band, the lot, okeana, college, EVERYBODY!!! hehe. I love you guys! Even though i know most of ya don't care because i've done soemthing to make just about everyone mad i'm sure.

Just can't wait till summer! Fishin, muddin, maybe the lot who knows!! I just wish it'd get warm SOON!
 
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Oh boy   
12:38am 11/01/2005
  Already quit my new job.. why work somewhere if i hate it? I don't need money that bad.

Jessie's back at Bonanza again.. i worked with him tonight and we had fun, i miss Jessie :(. But we can't really be friends again because Will thinks we were never just friends and that we wouldn't be if we hung out now?? I like Will too much to do anything like that i guess he just doesn't understand, especially when it comes to Jessie. I want us to be friends.. it's sad. I just wish Jessie and Will got along.. i wish they'd be friends. I'll work on that, that's they only way we'll be able to hang out.
 
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Interesting...   
09:14pm 04/01/2005
  How do you get an A in a class if you don't even take the final?? Yeah i ended up with an A in chemistry when i missed like 4 labs, a test and the final.. hmm... kinda fishy. I also got a B in Calc when i got a 90 an 81 a 47 and a 54 on the four tests that i took.. again i didn't take the final and i missed a test. I just find that to be kind of odd.. but oh well i got the credits and hopefully i can get them to transfer.

Got a lift for my truck for christmas.. and i'm hoping to take it to have it put on some time this week.

Got a new job as well.. it's gonna suck because it's kind of like telemarketing.. but the people i call are interested in what we're selling already and i just set appointments for one of the guys to go out and do a demonstration for them. But oh well.. it's better money and i get a bonus every time i set an appointment. We'll see how that goes..

But i'm going to go i'll ttyl!
 
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Blah!   
01:34am 19/12/2004
  Okay i'll make this quick i'm sleepy. Life kinda sucks right now. I'm working at Bonanza untill i can find me a good job, it sucks as usual but i made $109 on a party i did last night and like $80 in tips tonight so i'm doing alright i guess. Next week i become "team leader" or some crap like that.. sort of a manager (without the pay lol i'm being screwed). I've been freaking out lately thinking i'm fat.. duno what the deal is i just haven't felt very good about myself lately but i don't understand why it's just all of the sudden, but i joined a gym today i figured working out will give me something to do besides sleep and hopefully it'll help boost my confidence. Me and Will are still doing well, he's been helping me out a lot lately ya know trying to help me feel better about myself. Still don't know where i'm going to go to school in the fall! AGH! But i did manage to get 9 of my credits from Union.. no idea which ones though. I got online to see my grades and they aren't up but my GPA and my credits are up. I ended up not taking ANY of my finals and still passed like 3 classes?? I don't understand.. it was probably freshman seminar, chemistry and i duno what else.. not english i know that maybe calc? i just can't believe i passed some of my classes. Heck for the last month i was there i didn't do crap just sat around depressed wanting to go home.

I'm going to go to bed.. power went out at work tonight and i couldnt finish vacuuming so i have to go early in the morning to finish :(.. ttyl!
 
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I'm a screw up!   
02:12pm 07/12/2004
  I went back to school last Sunday after Thanksgiving break then monday i packed everything up and came home... Yes i dropped out of school. The funny part? the semester is over TODAY i only had to stay a little over a week longer. I just couldn't stand it there anymore.. i'm so much happier now! I'll just have to start all over this fall some how. I'll get my college education.  
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Almost Thanksgiving.   
05:03pm 16/11/2004
  Hey!!! Well... life has been going all right. A couple weeks ago i had a nervous break down and drove home in the middle of the night and missed a few days of school. On the way home me and Will got in a big fight.. it was really silly actually but i duno i was going insane. I don't know what the deal was. I'm doing better now i suppose. Thanksgiving break starts next Wednesday but i've decided i'm taking the whole week off. Then after that week i go back for a full week then the monday and tuesday after that and then i have my finals that next monday and tuesday (the 13th and 14th i think) so... like 12 days of school left. I'm not coming back next semester.. i'm done here. The chemistry program just is not good enough for me, i'm going to go some where else in the fall but i'm taking the spring semester off because it's too late to try and transfer now and plus i don't really know where i want to go. Last week on my chem test i didn't miss anything at all so my teacher went insane and he got me accepted into the SI program... but i don't understand how i can do SI for a class i haven't completed yet, and tomorrow i have a meeting with the department head to talk about next semester (even though i keep trying to tell them i'm not coming back) they're thinking about letting me test out of the second half of intro to chem. It's kind of nice though i'm exempt from all homework and labs (all though i attend the labs anyway and he gives me more advanced work to try and figure out). The chem program here is just to easy for me i'm sure somewhere else i'd be having a lot more trouble. I mean i know i'm good at chemistry but geez they act like i'm a genius around here.

Me and Will are still doing well. We went muddin all last weekend and i got my truck stuck and had to be pulled out by a chevy :(. Now my truck is screwed up again :( grr... gotta stay out of the mud!!!

But i'm going to go now i'm at work.. i'll write more later i have lots more catching up to do.
 
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Hello there!   
07:33pm 26/10/2004
  Hey!!! Well just to let everyone know everything is going great down here in good ol' Barbourville (B'ville or the "barb" as some people like to call it lol). Wanna know what i got on my second Chemistry test? Okay i'll tell ya! 107! hehe i'm a genius.. our teacher curves every test so that there is at least one A.. now he curves it according to the second highest score.. disregarding what i get. He's accepted the fact that i will always do better than everyone else and so he doesn't curve according to my score.. he doesn't think it's fair and really i think it's plenty fair maybe everyone else should just study more! Seriously though if someone else wants the A they should STUDY... but our teacher is too nice i suppose. On midterm i had 4 A's and 2 C's. I had an A in Chem, Calc, Freshman Seminar, and Life Choices, and a C in English and History. Not too bad my GPA was like 3.3 or something i don't remember.. they do GPA's weird, but it's higher that it would be if you figured it normally because calc and chem are worth more than the rest of my classes becuause they're 4 credit hours rather than 2 or 3 or whatever the rest are.

I went home this past weekend.. stayed with Will Friday but we just went to bed because i was really tired. Then Saturday i went to another party with him at one of his friends houses i had fun.. his friends are kewl, and they love me hehe. I got pretty drunk it was good, i had like 10 beers and a some yeager.. mm mm haha. Only one or two of Will's friends can actually out drink me, i don't think they do a lot of drinking because they were amazed by the amount i can consume without puking haha, and it's really not that much at all.. oh well. I saw Tuffer friday night him and a bunch of the guys got a house together out in Okeana.. he wants me to come see it and hang out i think i may do that this weekend i'm really curious as to what kind of house they live in.

I really need to clean my dorm and do some homework so i will talk to ya'll later!!!
 
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Update!!!   
11:03pm 17/10/2004
  Time for a little update since it's been a while! Thursday i finally got my tattoo.. it's a rose with a confederate flag on it.. it's pretty sweet. It's on the bottom of my back it hurt like heck but i did good. Me and Will are doing great this weekend i got to hang out and meet some of his friends i like them their kewl. I went to a party with all of them Friday night it was fun and i got drunk (because i'm i drunk *rolls eyes*) I don't really see what the big deal is with drinking every once in a while. I'm pretty pissed because someone (and i'm pretty sure of who) left me a nice little note out by my truck that said "Randi, you're dirty you drunk". I'm very mad.. it's ridiculous really, i can count how many times i've been drunk in my life probably on my fingers. grrr... but we won't think about that. I worked Saturday and to my surprise Jessie is back! I've missed Jessie we were like best friends and then we didn't talk forever! Will isn't happy he hates Jessie and he's afraid i'm gonna like him or something i don't know but he'll get over it i'm sure. I like Will too much to leave him for Jessie. I really don't have a whole lot to say.. School is going well. Barbourville rocks!! hehe but i'm going to go talk to my buddy Jocely.. ttyl!!!  
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Manana es mi cumpleano! (add a couple tildes in there)   
03:35pm 23/09/2004
  Tomorrow is my 18th birthday!!! Finally!!! Next week i can go to the "adult store" in Corbin!!! I don't know what i'll be getting, i didn't really want anything in particular so we'll see. Will might get me a cb for my truck.. i hope he does.. then i would have something to entertain me during the 8+ hours i drive every weekend.

Took my first chem test the other day i got THE A.. meaning i set the curve.. but there wasn't one because i'm good and got the A without a curve! The rest of the class was not very happening since i ruined the curve but sorry.. next time i bet they'll study. School is going all right.. there hasn't been any more earthquakes. Thank God that was freaking scary!!

I want to eat subway or arbys for dinner tonight i'm tired of cafe food it sucks!! (yes i know that was really random)

I must go i'm "working", yeah i have the easiest work study on campus :). Byeeeeee!!!
 
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School school school...   
03:44pm 20/09/2004
  Got an A on my chem test. The only A in fact.. yes i'm bragging.. i'm aloud aren't I? Just wait until i get my history test back that i took today.. that'll be bad. I started my work study today i'm working with the lady who is in charge of community work study and community service and all that good stuff. I don't know where she went though so i'm bored.. i get off at 5.. this really seems like a waste of time to me. My calculus professor is the funniest man alive he spends more time telling us jokes than he does teaching but his jokes are hilarious! It's even funny just the way he tells them.. geez. I guess i should go see if she is back...  
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EARTHQUAKE!!!!!! no really...   
03:46pm 17/09/2004
  Just as i was sitting in History class this morning complaining to Jocelyn how boring our history class is THERE WAS AN EARTHQUAKE!!! Of course when it happened i didn't know it was an earthquake seeing as how i've never been in one before. At first i thought it was thunder because that's what it sounds like but it felt different like it came from the ground and it shook the whole building, and it was longer than thunder. Thunder if it's really loud it'll shake things a bit but this wasn't too loud and you could really feel it. Then i came back to my dorm and watched the news and sure enough it was an earthquake, and we're supposed to have another one, but bigger. I'm going to head home soon i don't want to be here when the town collapses lol. Barbourville is so tiny and so old it wouldn't take much to wipe it out.  
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Interesting   
08:36pm 14/09/2004
 
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your name is...
your eyesare deep and mysterious
your hairis your pride and glory
your smiledraws others towards you
your bodyis envied by many
your hugsmake others feel safe
your kissis enticing
your loveis not given likely
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